Monday, October 22, 2012

Dead Poets and Dragons


Somewhere in my college years I fell in love with the English language. I’ve always had a respect for it, but in my younger years it was more of a hands off style of respect, much like I respected the scorpion or girls, because both had consequence.

I mean I wrote, but words?  They were dull tools meant to thump ideas into shape. Vocabulary and grammar? Those were pretty words used by silly girls making up for poor math and science skills.

Stick that in your hypotenuse!

I know.  That makes no sense, but it’s how I proved superior math words over vocabulary drivel. That was me in High School. Yeah, I was popular with all the ladies.

Maybe that’s why I changed my perspective in college. Ladies loved dead poets. OK, no, let’s be honest: It’s not. Ladies do love dead poets, but no, that’s not why I changed teams. I want to blame some cool dead poet, but I can’t. It was a dude, and he wasn’t even a poet.

But he was dead.

 I blame Ernest Hemmingway.

Teams...? What?  You thought I was…No!  Not that team! And maybe that’s why I never was good with the ladies before college: poorly chosen words. And maybe that’s an even more important reason for loving words later: precision.  As a writer, people like to know what I mean. 

What am I saying?

I wish I knew.  That’s why I love Hemmingway. He used single words to cast multiple meaning shadows so that nobody knew what he was talking about.

Throughout school, teachers tried to get me to interpret writers’ motives. I can tell you that according to my English teachers “cuz it was a cool story” was never a motive that crossed any worthy writer’s mind.  I can also tell you “cool” never crossed Charles Dickens’ mind either. He lived in a really cool era and never wrote a cool story.

“Please sir, might I have some more.”
“Why yes, there’re 500 more grueling pages where that one came from. Here, enjoy”

Yeah, that never got me far with the ladies either.  Ladies love Dickens. They find him romantic.

Ladies didn’t find Hemmingway romantic. Reading him never got me in with ladies. But understanding him gave me a chance.  See I knew if 1,000 monkeys could hammer out Shakespeare over time, 1 halfwit college kid could create Hemmingway.

“Dog-pillaged carnivals canter endless dirges into sunset.”

I found that sentence by rolling Dungeon & Dragon dice and then picking corresponding pages in a Thesaurus.  College girls thought they found somebody clever. They did, just not how they thought.

“Are you saying that American society is dying?”
“Wha—are you topless? Sure! That’s exactly what I’m saying.”

Yes, that’s right, dear reader, I found a way to utilize teen years of Dungeons & Dragons that make me look cool. And for that I thank Ernest Hemmingway.

And yes, I am saying that my love for language didn’t spring from a completely altruistic well.  Those waters were tainted long ago. They were corrupted by the trickling blood of authors and poets: some living, some dead, all thirsty for more than pretty words with women.

Pretty words and D&D have a lot in common.  For one thing, we use them to fill the time we’d rather spend with women. For another, we use them to create worlds. Worlds where we embody either heroes or villains, but worlds where we’re in command. 

Words are superpowers.

So now I find myself a more mature word powered man. I’m no longer a college kid spinning yarns for games of naked twister. I’m older, and hopefully wiser. I have a wife. I have responsibilities.  I have words, I should use them appropriately.

Hemmingway taught me that words were fun. I love them. Time and experience have taught me that the things you love, you treat with respect, because like girls and scorpions, they sting.

This blog you read. I hope you enjoy it. This is where I try to find that balance. This is my refuge of words: my laboratory of love, respect, and whimsy. This is where I return the gift that has been given to me, and hopefully where I make you think, feel and smile. That’s what I’ve learned from the words that were taught to me. And where I give them back to you, out of love.

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